He's relieved to even hear his name, and he's quiet, before letting out a deep breath, gathering himself together. Gojo has been reciting these many words in his head over and over, but finds it difficult to voice when the time finally comes.
"Suguru, I'm... I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I thought my own path was more important than yours, I'm sorry that I convinced myself into thinking you'd make your way through and be okay on your own--"
Deluding himself further, catering to his own ego by finding a way to keep doing everything by himself. It doesn't matter that all that hasn't happened to this Geto yet; he owes these words to him all the same.
"Because I'm seeing the same thing happening here all over again, this drifting apart, and-- and me being the reason you're miserable."
He presses his forehead to the back of his neck, the hand on Geto's side tightening slightly, shaking.
"And I keep wondering if maybe the best thing for me to do is to let you go. Before you sink all over again because of me. Because being without you is painful, but that you're hurting more because of me is so much worse."
With how he's lying here now, clutching on to Geto, shows how he really feels about actually letting go. When he speaks again, his voice is strained.
"We see what happens, and I-- can't bare the idea of you wasting your time in this place being unhappy. Whatever that means for me in that, just don't-- please don't waste your chance to be happy here."
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Date: 2024-03-13 10:22 pm (UTC)"Suguru, I'm... I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I thought my own path was more important than yours, I'm sorry that I convinced myself into thinking you'd make your way through and be okay on your own--"
Deluding himself further, catering to his own ego by finding a way to keep doing everything by himself. It doesn't matter that all that hasn't happened to this Geto yet; he owes these words to him all the same.
"Because I'm seeing the same thing happening here all over again, this drifting apart, and-- and me being the reason you're miserable."
He presses his forehead to the back of his neck, the hand on Geto's side tightening slightly, shaking.
"And I keep wondering if maybe the best thing for me to do is to let you go. Before you sink all over again because of me. Because being without you is painful, but that you're hurting more because of me is so much worse."
With how he's lying here now, clutching on to Geto, shows how he really feels about actually letting go. When he speaks again, his voice is strained.
"We see what happens, and I-- can't bare the idea of you wasting your time in this place being unhappy. Whatever that means for me in that, just don't-- please don't waste your chance to be happy here."